[Incidentally - it isn't. Milder nightmares are normal for him, when he hasn't run himself to exhaustion by finding distractions until the small hours of the morning. Here, now, he's been working himself to the bone for the simple fact that not having his magic at his disposal is unsettling, like he's lost a hand.
Sure, he can still manage a sword one-handed, but he's not as good at defending those important to him without the full array of his strengths at his disposal.
He might even admit as much over tea, should Lorenz think to ask.]
Hah. I've been trying not to worry anyone, but... these Bonds make that much difficult, as I'm sure you've noticed. ...But I will try to rely on the others more going forward, at least until I'm back to myself. I think I needed that reminder. So thank you, again, Lorenz.
[Look, he gets the acceptance and willingness to work with the darker aspects of humanity... and he gets not really wanting a bond for the sake of protecting himself and others.
It just... didn't pan out that way for him, is all. Clearly.]
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Sure, he can still manage a sword one-handed, but he's not as good at defending those important to him without the full array of his strengths at his disposal.
He might even admit as much over tea, should Lorenz think to ask.]
Hah. I've been trying not to worry anyone, but... these Bonds make that much difficult, as I'm sure you've noticed.
...But I will try to rely on the others more going forward, at least until I'm back to myself. I think I needed that reminder.
So thank you, again, Lorenz.
[Look, he gets the acceptance and willingness to work with the darker aspects of humanity... and he gets not really wanting a bond for the sake of protecting himself and others.
It just... didn't pan out that way for him, is all. Clearly.]